update ....
or at least I think it would be fair to say there is... even if it is clear from the general frequency of my updating that it is not something that happens daily or even bi-weekly mostly... but just been feeling bad about letting the pressure take away my update time... I have tried to update this several times... just never had the time to complete any of the updates... due to a whole lot of things...
mostly school which will in my case be more quiet now that I finally end school on Wednesday - for my final year study holidays! (again.... ) and do have the written Maths exam this Tuesday and the written English some time 24th/25th May. Also very exciting will be what class I will have to do a spoken exam in (hoping big time for English)
and then the bad news - I think what I feared the most (almost) has finally happened .... it seems as if my athritis has attacked my back ... this is the 3rd month I ahve back pains and the 2nd day I have a rigid spine ... last two days it just wouldn't move - whereas now it hurts like if I move it ... very much like how my shoulders started out - and anybody who knows me just a little knows I have none working shoulders... even when the nice doctor lady had to do a general exam to give me this odd evalution she just kept pulling them upwards and I kept screaming and they didn't really ever move above a 60 degree angle (on the right - only a 40 degree on the left - and was with tears in my eyes... safe to say I try to avoid her whenever I need to go to the doctor ... )
it's just keep lowering my chances of actually moving away from as I can't bend down at all soon ... and I can't really bend using my lower body as my knees and ancles are just beyond crappy (anybody remember my many wheelchair and crutches bouts?!) just so not what I need right now - I ahve exams to deal with ... and I am really not looking forward to having to do make up exams as I'm probably not going to get into uni then ... and I just so need to find a solution on how to move away from home cause I am not staying here longer than necessary ...