I'm really in a bad mood today - or more correctly my PC is turning my comfy content going with the flow mood sour ... you know when you got a much more powerful processor and 6 times more RAM - and about 5-6 years younger! You should really be much faster... but no.

Also it decided to fuck with the two most important programmes! (Photoshop and Firefox) grr! that's is unforgiveable! I should know better than to buy something known brand name.

I cannot believe I don't have an Iceland tag on here yet. Oh well. Counting down... and oooh excitement! And fingers crossed for us not driving anybody entirely insane and mad... 

and of course I strongly suggest people go to jjverse and sign up for a team ... it promises to be much fun!

can you be righteously furious!?

is there actually such a thing ... I ahve no idea ... especially my being all crippled morals and standards that no one can phantom or ever live up to ... but is there actually sucha  thing - I know I have felt righteously furious at people before - mostly concluded with me ending up screaming and crying for hours or smashing something - which then have led to sever consideration of my temperament and anger management courses or theraphy ... but everytime I did come to the conclusion that I was righteously furious - that a deed had been done to hurt and wound me.

 - but were they really ... ?!


As most people who I have shared bits and pieces of me with know that I'm a person that bottles ... I bottle everything just to stay in control. which is quite useful as then don't lash out on innocent people or possibly when people are actually around... but really this also ends with me burying somethings ...  only for them to resurface and then fury returns - it doesn't feel bad or anything of that sort ... more along the lines of ... arousing ... the nerves start tingling, your palms start to moist, feel a slight blush maybe even ... and then the wonderful gut feeling ... (quite obvius I am a reader/artist not a writer...)  but it is just that feeling you get for a short moment ... and then it simmers down to just being foul mood ... 

 ... I'd really love to start jabbering on and on and on about  the actual stuff and situations as I need to get them out ... but I have a nagging feeling that ALOT of people would be very not satisfied with me ... and really I don't give that much of a crap about it ... but as I have as a goal this year to be a nicer person and not resemble a blunt force trauma weapon anymore  ....  which in my head and world means you don't blabber stuff you don't like about people or how you think they are conniving bitches that deserve nothing short of a very slow painful death and a long and horrible life before that to them anymore
 


 amazing thing is this probably did help me a bit but still won't satisfy my thirst for revenge (which sounds alot more dramatic than it is ...) I know I wil get ...  I just like to plan and plot and then slowly  get to the execution of said revenge ... because I know I will come out on the other end victorious - I always have done ...